MM, needless to say things have returned to their normalcy, some what and will return to a regular schedule after today is over. I'd like to be able to take a breather, but I guess I have to count all of my reluctantly labeled off days. Well, as they say in Turkey, the iron that keeps on working won't collect rust.
Though, I have much to do, life seems to love to throw me around from one place to another, have me chase a wild goose chase. Chasing after ghosts is what its more like. If I can have my taxes done today and get a few answers of a few questions, I will count today as a success and leave the rest to the weekend to worry. Though not much remains.
Just a few things that will take most of my next week and then I shall be free to write and study, and let's not forget work as I please. Having a job sounds like a good thing to have in one's resume, for the sake of surviving.
Hopefully, this tax pain will go away by the end of today and I can say hello to a warmer and a more colorful world.
Up until last Sunday, I had a terrific train of thought that suddenly got disrupted by an argument that broke out between me and a family member. Because of that, I gathered everything I had and well, found myself here. Naturally, since I d live here and had decided to move out sometime ago. A place I should have returned long ago. A place I was shut away from due to my own cowardice, fear and incompetence. That is the only thing I hate about my return to Wisconsin. It was abrupt and all of my thoughts and the ideas that had collected towards one direction, accumulating to a certain conclusion, now are all dispersed as I had to just focus all of my mental and well, physical energy at redirecting the course of my life, surviving and getting here safely and well, in efforts to have a future in one way or another.
Well struggling is good, hopefully though this toil comes to an end by next week. Though I am grateful for this is giving me the test I need to face myself once again at my lowest and darkest times and facing a darker self. If I can finish these trials that seems to litter my life currently, if I can make my peace with my wrongdoings and mistakes, I think I can handle anything and I am hoping that I will have also learned from my mistakes. I believe, this is very important. Considering, I do not want to be at the place I am in life right now, again, it would be wise to learn from my mistakes, otherwise I'll end up exactly where I am by next year this time. This is something I want to avoid at all costs!
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