Backgrounds

I used to wonder the point of desktop background pictures for the sole fact if you're doing something on your computer, you don't actually get to see what's on your background--unless you want to work in small windows (most of us don't). If you're surfing the web, shopping, looking at pictures, researching, writing a paper or watching a movie you're not looking at your background picture. It's really only useful if you're only listening to music, which you're probably doing something else as you're listening to music, like reading, dishes, dusting, folding clothes, reading or doing homework. So when does a background really come in handy? Well, basically when you're just turning your computer on and as you're shutting it down. Perhaps, if you're just staring at it due to some inspirational picture you may have on there. It's good to show off your interest in a simple way as a background picture usually says much about our characters. Other than that, really not much.

Currently, I have a picture from an old manga/anime. It's in color, it's on the moon with Usagi Tsukino, Sailor Venus and Tuxedo Mask. It feels like staring into abyss, because the background is tense, hefty and black. It feels like I really am out in space somewhere, floating in my thoughts. It takes me into a chaos that's been there much of my life and for a good portion of my life, I've been both desiring and at the same time trying to run away from it. As wonderful as chaos could be, it leads to disasters in my life, where I lose myself in the moment and the unhappiness rolls in waves.

Such as this picture. It's in admiration and as a reminder to myself, of what I have to do daily in order to such big chaos where I would lose everything I have worked for.