Renewing Routines

Just when I thought at least I had my morning routine down. Well, we both overslept a little. But it looks like I'm going to have to change my morning routine at the very least by including some sort of physical activity in it. My back aches and the soreness of my legs have pushed me thus far and I might as well turn a bunch of lemons into a even more bitter lemonade that's healthy for me.

I've been feeling a little better for the past few days as I've felt horrible at nights as the dusk sets down and the melancholy finds it's nest within my soul. I am not sure why, but usually it's because the mornings are full or promise and, yes, I am going to use the word ripe. Our mornings are hectic and by three a lot of things has been accomplished. The rest well then, opens up to imagination, giving room to think about a lot of positive and the negative, thus leaving me with a vulnerability. I am not going to suggest to myself that I just make myself more busy so that I can just not think about it. I know very well that never is going to be the resolution. I've tried it and it only lead me to the bigger mistakes of my life. It doesn't work for me specifically, but it also doesn't work for anybody else on this earth. Pretending a problem isn't there, doesn't mean that's it's getting solved on it's own, or that it's not getting any bigger. The worst part about this whole situation is that while I am well aware of the situation, I am not capable of actually solving the problem, why? Because I currently don't possess the tools necessary to solve them.

But having a routine, giving me some sort of academic and soul nourishment is helping me, at least thinking about things in those long walks we've been taking. So maybe, with a little bit more physical exercise, this could turn out to be a healthy thing, at least keeping me focused on the problem, looking for other solutions out there. On a side note, it's giving me some of the old flexibility and the athletic body that I used to have that I never thought about, but had as a result of swimming.

Well, with that said, I'm off to try on my new routine.