We've discussed this option for a very long time, since December, over and over with S, continually. From evening to dawn of the next morning. I thought we were prepared for this. We can't seem to take a breather for a very long time, it seems. Something is happening to someone, with short intervals. At least, I am getting better bit by bit, so now, I can support S.
S received some heart breaking news today. His professor no longer wants to work with him. This was shattering to S. The always humorous, always optimist S that I knew was in shambles today, his voice shaken and his eyes sunken. this is hard news to hear for someone in the academia who has worked 16 hours a day trying to make everyone but himself happy, trying to meet expectations. For someone who has given his whole three years, he feel so stifled and short-changed and I can't blame him. His wound is big and hurtful. He doesn't know what to do, what to say. His sadness is visible and I just don't know what to say to him to soothe him better. He feels like it's a big slap on the face. People who thought academia was face, you have no idea how wrong that is and how competitive everything is in these institutions' walls.
Long walks is all we can take. Maybe the fresh spring air will make him feel better. At the moment, this is all we can do.
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