Now that all the tears have been shed and all the sides have been heard, not ignoring a single comma, and the decision has been made, unanimously, there is no escape, no alternative, no other choice.
Okay, but how about embracing it. Acting on it, and knowing for a fact that you will come to severely regret this choice, this prolonged waiting period, insecurity and emotional wilderness that seems to be eating me away bit by bit, chipping away at my chest. But I just can't get myself to get up and do it. I've done everything else. But I am afraid to get it officially announced. It would make it that much more real, that much more true. It is going to leave me devastated. Being devastated is also not doing me any good. In fact, it will do me loads of harm in the future. I can see that much into the future. "Know Thy Self" has always struck a chord with me, ever since I was a child.What is the solution?
Acceptance is the hardest part. There is no reconciliation between the heart and the mind in this topic. I am even afraid to acknowledge that anywhere but here, aloud. Especially, not in front of S. It's tragic, really.
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