Pictures and Reality

This is a little hard to explain. Sometimes I don't know which is which. Sometimes, in a moment of reality where time slows down, leaf of autumn halt and images attached to emotions are engraved in your heart and turn into stilled pictures. You won't ever come to possess them in print because reality can't do justice to what's engraved in your heart. Nothing can't match the vibrant colors of that picture at heart, the way strands of hair dances wildly in the wind, smell of pomegranates, and sways of hips, and how curves of life just get lost in the landscape...No camera can just catch that gleam in the eyes and that perfect smile that makes each breath worth it.

Then, there are other times, when a picture can't do justice to the reality of emotions. The loud banging of one's heart in her ears, the loud screaming that comes from somewhere deep within we didn't know we had the capability to carry around in us, or even come to abhor at times. No picture could ever hold a candle up to that.

There are plenty of times where reality mixes with pictures, and my pictures mixes into my reality, or become my reality. It's hard to separate from one another...that is exactly how I start writing each story and essay. There is a moment pictured so perfectly the whole story is just about trying to explain that one perfect moment. It's what love is after all. You'll see someone in one perfect shining light and that image will settle into our hearts and for the rest of our lives we'll try to live that moment over and over again, chasing after ghosts trying to find that person again whom we thought we knew then, only realize it was a stranger sleeping next to us all these years. When imagination is active and it's easy to daydream. But day dreaming and especially the ability of pictures and reality mixing into one another has a dangerous component when the two mixes about a person. Kind of like love. It could lead to lethal consequences and can make you cast out your whole un-lived entire future for that person, that love. You can find out that you never really loved the person for who they were, but just the image that was captivated in your mind. When the two mix, you don't know the reasons, how why and not being able to differentiate reality can lead to break-downs and break-ups. To love a person from pictures is rather dangerous because if reality doesn't match up, there reconciliation problems occur as mentioned above.

Then, what is one to do? Let go of the person whose reality doesn't match up to the pictures? Or further a lie until the very end?