I am afraid

I am scared...maybe this is useless.

Things have been getting darker with my repulsive tiny candle light, which whimsically changes its mind to dwindle down, or light up.
giving me all sorts of different signs which makes my life harder to breathe.

I have some big decisions to make now..and big conversations to have..
hopefully it all ends well.

I have fallen in love ...at such an unexpected time. I never expected to have my own version of fairy tale. I am afraid of losing you to sillyness. i don't want your feelings to fade, for you to see me differently. Please please, let this dream continue. This reality to be hard and solid as any other reality in my life.