Why can't I stop thinking

And I've came down to the same path. It's the same as always. I think this one's a dream that will never come true, regardless of how much I want it.
I wish, and from the bottom of my heart that he had kept this promise. I wish things went smoothly all the time and we were at the point hoped to be at, maybe even further.
I wish interaction had been connected when said.
My only conclusion is that thoughts and feelings are changed, which caused status to change, as a result promise broken, action not taken.
Ah..how I wonder and wish...
I really do hope before the flesh appears before me, I'll get the chance to, and that words will be spoken clearly even before that.