So tonight did not end how I had hoped or how I had begun it.
I am still in the process of putting my life in order and living through it. You can say that I am still struggling with it to state the obvious.
There was a time in my life where I was great with lists, and orders. It came naturally to me, but now, maybe due to my special circumstance I just can't bring myself to do so. Who knows?
Yeah, probably that's it.
There is so much in this little body of mine, but half of it is lost in translation and half I am unable to make sense of it much, bluntly. Therefore, it ends up not getting out and it builds on and on.