Wedding Preps

And, I cannot believe how difficult it is to find out what you need, and how to contact judges, where to find them for a legal ceremony. And also, do you know the rates of getting married in Madison, WI? It's 120 dollars to apply for a marriage license. It's about 120 to give to judge. There is no way people who are just trying to save money on a ceremony will do this. Why is it so expensive to get married in Madison?

Also, why is it so difficult for the people at the front desk to be nice and smile and be courteous?

Item Number Three

This brings me to agenda number three. My immediate need for some medical intervention. The longer it is becoming invasive, less tolerable and even a bigger destruction on my soul that it is already.

Item Number Two

With that, this brings me to our number two and its many sidesteps. So in order to be under S's health care insurance, we will need to be legally married. We are now in the gathering process and I plan to do something very small, very simple, i.e. getting married at the judge's chambers and go out for drinks. Nothing special, nothing white, no flowers and nothing like that.

I am looking forward to legally and spiritually combining our lives into one. We will be a real family now. Just you and me, babe.

Item One

Signing a lease and arranging moving related issues was our number one time. While this is not solved, it is definitely on its way to be solved. Even if we don't get into Quisling, we'll move into somewhere else, and we will live somewhere. We've seen a few apartments today and will turn in applications to a few places. So eventually, we will move somewhere. Other moving arrangements are easier to solve when we actually know when we will be doing the moving. Until then, step two and threes of item one are on hold.

Since having a health insurance in U.S. is of extreme importance and considering the fact that I have several, legitimate, concerning health issues to deal with, we've come to the decision that it's best S takes me under his health insurance policy. We looked into how we can do this, is via domestic partnership, which needs far too much evidence and secondly via marriage/children born into a person. And this works out perfectly, because we decided that it was time to do our legal marriage. And since we are already engaged and will be getting married sometime, we decided to move the date up. It will be much easier this way. The wedding will be on August 2014 (and in Turkey) and although it is a long time until then, we will need to start S's paper works anyhow, so we will need to be married earlier than our wedding date. Our legal ceremony will be much earlier than planned, that's all. I am actually kind of happy about that. Also it will be much smaller.

Quisling Terrace

Our apartment being demolished and all, every last one of the tenants has to move out by August 15th. It's great if you had originally planned to move out in August and had done your research according to the lease signing dateline that we have in Madison, WI. However, if you were planning to live another year in the current apartment you have been leasing, tough luck, you're officially screwed. So we begun our research into the apartment hunting for our upcoming and pending doom and gloom. Our initial research was less than satisfactory. It was bizarre and disappointing to say the least.

Then we came across Quisling Terrace, a place for low income families, though only in the name. And while we were happy and excited until we were stone walled. The application process is incredibly insane, detail oriented, evidence proof based, and bureaucratically slow. It's almost not worth it.

Update on Moving

We've seen loads of apartments online, we've contacted tens of landlords, office managers and seen a dozen of apartments. It's frustrating and demeaning. Places that are cheap are in horrible condition. They truly don't care. Everybody has to live somewhere right? Or the decent places are inexcusably expensive.How do they think they can get away with this is a ridiculous question--because they do get away with it.

We have turned in our applications to a few places and are waiting to hear back from them. I am hoping for the best. I would love to know if we're moving out anywhere at all in August. The time window is closing and there are less and less apartments everyday.

1 Year Anniversary

Today is our 1 year anniversary. A whole year since the first day we met, began talking to each other, confessed our feelings to one another, made the decision to try this out, moved in, went through Ramadan, Muharrem, birthdays, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's, Valentines and eventually arriving at today.

It's interesting to note the fluidity of time, where at first it stalled, stagnated and then flied out the window and a whole year found itself completed and has made us both feel warm, awed and that we've been with one another for a life time.

It feels like we've always been together and that, we've opened our eyes to the world, with one another, as if no other person existed, and there were no interferences and in this world, there is just you and me.

Never had I loved anyone so much, with all of my soul to the last drop of it, and never had I been loved so much, with all of his beliefs, passion and being.

I could never be without you, for you are my world.