It seems S can't catch a break. I think he caught my bad case of luck from me. He is the person whose life has went according to plan, and things happening, what he wanted, even if they were delayed. Now that he knows he won't be teaching either, we just don't know what to do financially. We were getting by hardly as it is, now this. We are definitely in a tight situation.
I hope S can recover from this. Even if he does, it's going to take him the whole summer, I can see that. Two things happening so close to one another. He is still venting over the difficulty of his emotions and how much he feels like he was used.
All of this hard work? For what? I wish I knew what to do, other than just listen to him. I wish I could give him a solution, keep him focused and allow him to have unlimited time to mourn and get over it. He was there when I needed him to be, and hopefully I can fulfill that role for him just as well.
Out of a group, without a teaching position, our summer is already looking like a nightmare.
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Monday, May 20, 2013
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Not Expecting This
Well, Shit!
I was not expecting this to happen. Fuck. Okay, enough cursing. But it's not out of my system now. I didn't think we'd end up at this conclusion. Definitely not the result I was hoping to see at the end of that time window. How did it end up like this, here? Ah, man. This is not how I imagined such an important step of my life.
It's human fallacy and ego that we wish to be in the driving seat at all times with our lives. We think there are more things that are in control that there actually are. As we go ahead and imagine, the figure in the shadow has a way to come in and interfere in the way you had imagined, hoped and planed all along. Well, this is a slap on the face. Hard one.
The bigger question is, what will I do? What will we do? How this will effect me, him, us? Can this be overcome, are there other solutions and remedies to this problem that we just currently are not seeing, not able to, due to the hazy feelings and serious complications?
I was not expecting this to happen. Fuck. Okay, enough cursing. But it's not out of my system now. I didn't think we'd end up at this conclusion. Definitely not the result I was hoping to see at the end of that time window. How did it end up like this, here? Ah, man. This is not how I imagined such an important step of my life.
It's human fallacy and ego that we wish to be in the driving seat at all times with our lives. We think there are more things that are in control that there actually are. As we go ahead and imagine, the figure in the shadow has a way to come in and interfere in the way you had imagined, hoped and planed all along. Well, this is a slap on the face. Hard one.
The bigger question is, what will I do? What will we do? How this will effect me, him, us? Can this be overcome, are there other solutions and remedies to this problem that we just currently are not seeing, not able to, due to the hazy feelings and serious complications?
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