Home

After our engagement, things have been wonderful. Not to say it isn't without it's interruptions. But at least, our apartment is now feeling more like a home. I will never truly feel like this apartment is mine, or that I belong here, due to the all the history behind it that includes others. However, at least we're not a family, and it's got that homey feeling. I've finally been able to give it a home feeling. The temporarily designed, managed and stored items have found much better permanent homes. Unfortunate that it took us this long, but our whole lives have been a whirlwind. Since June, we've both been trying to catch up and it's been one milestone after another. The more I think about it, the more crazy it seems.

But now, I feel comfortable coming back home at the end of the night. It's a home alright.

Part of Me Now

Another line across the date. One day closer. My stomach is in knots. I can't believe we lived through that. Unbelievable. That was the experience of a life time. Extremely special, confusing, confounding and has brought us to another dimension now. To be able to do this, it takes so much out of a person, of a couple. Now, we're here, comfortably, in unison and happiness, without regrets.

This is something I will never be able to forget, never be able to let go. I'll always relieve those moments, again and again and something in me has completely embraces this idea, this notion and action so wholly that I am unsure how I will be able to untangle it from my own identity. It is now, forever a part of me.