And sometimes at the worst possible moment you come to a realization--you don't belong. You principally and wholeheartedly do not belong and have different urges to fulfill. The world becomes lonely and it becomes harder to reconcile differences. There is nothing anyone can do about it. For the past 23 years of your life, you wonder about and see the subtle differences. You should be like them, because they have created you and have given you your first moldings. But then your eyes open and you see it here and there, tiny little pimple heads poking their head out of the surface. You ignore them, and turn the blind eye. After a while they start adding up, again and again. It becomes harder not seeing them. You have to constantly make a mental note to not see it, put in effort to tell yourself that there is nothing there, denying the truth. Then it comes unraveling at the worst time. It unravels so fast you don't know what hits you. Its horrible and then it sinks in. You and them belongs in two different worlds. Two very distinct and separate worlds.