Why can't I stop thinking

And I've came down to the same path. It's the same as always. I think this one's a dream that will never come true, regardless of how much I want it.
I wish, and from the bottom of my heart that he had kept this promise. I wish things went smoothly all the time and we were at the point hoped to be at, maybe even further.
I wish interaction had been connected when said.
My only conclusion is that thoughts and feelings are changed, which caused status to change, as a result promise broken, action not taken.
Ah..how I wonder and wish...
I really do hope before the flesh appears before me, I'll get the chance to, and that words will be spoken clearly even before that.

Wait Patiently

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Evil Sleep

And so, I have slept pretty much all day today exception of a few hours which I concluded some of my errands.
Rather a bold move for someone who has just moved out to live on her own and has a billion of things to do.

*Sigh* Well tomorrow, Shall be a good day where I shall get everything I needed to get done. :)

Happiness...this time around I feverishly hope that will last longer and continue to grow sincere.

Glitters of Hope

And once in a while, life shows small glitters of hope, a signal for a change for the better, a momentum which makes you feel, alive again.
You become all so familiar with the feelings of desperation, misery, pity, weakness, sadness, wallowing, and the feeling of being at the bottom of a dark, lonely well. Maybe, too well. You are no longer acquainted but rather familiars.
Heart memorizes the pain, your soul reckons that feeling, the loneliness is carved so deep into your mind, that darkness is burned into every single inch, cell of you.
So, when the moment of a bit of light occurs, its nearly impossible to not: question, grow suspicious, and even paranoid. Moments like these flee away, and anything and everything can possibly change this situation. But, you've held onto darkness for so long, it feels good to be out in the light again. You never want to lose it, you never want to be in that darkness, so you hopelessly cling on to the light with more desperation than you had in the darkness. More desperation to the point of going insane, madness, and helplessness.
But, life is rather cruel and we humans are pawns under the hand of the God. In the most unexpected moment, we fall to a never ending, bottomless dark pit once again to long for the light and for an opportunity to shine on us.
This time, I hope, my light shines brighter for a longer period of time..so I can remember how to smile once again.

I've seen small sparkles of hope, small glitters of dreams shine through again in this time of dark time.
Maybe..I can make out of this one too?
Wouldn't that be grand?

Day 1

Starting tomorrow, I have quite a bit of things to accomplish. First, I have to open up a bank account in here, secondly I have to pay my rent and my phone bill, slowly start shopping for my apartment and finally moving in.
Then actually well real work begins then.

Well, right now, I could say I am happy. Things have been pretty well since I came here. I am just hoping and feverishly praying that it continues like this and only gets better.

first step

First step of a new life maybe?

I wish I could of heard those words without these circumstances