Sometimes the day just doesn't start off right and on other days it starts off perfect.
Then, you just stumble to bring the rest of the day to a close. You just can't wait to go back home and fall into your couch, crash into your bottle of red wine, or bourbon, or gin or whatever it may be, and just do nothing but stare out of the window, to the white wall where there are no patterns to figure out. Just stay still and let it just all come undone, let it pause, be still, be quiet.
Sometimes day just starts off in that beautiful sunshine, with a goodnight's great sleep and wonderful dreams that you just can't bring your mind out of, you have a great breakfast, you get some early work done, cruise around on the net, your lover pays you a middle of the day visit, just because he can and he makes you fly to clouds and see the rainbow when it ain't raining. Then, it falls apart unknowingly, unsettlingly and without a notice. Then you just can't finish everything else that's on your to do list. It keeps compiling up and all you want to do is wrap a blanket around you and disappear into the night but the reality keeps calling and all you can do is divert it's attention for long enough while.