Yesterday was an amazing day...for the first time, it felt so natural to be together. I had dearly missed you so. But it makes me question everything. We sparsely have good days and it hardly feels natural anymore. You don't hold my hand, you barely kiss me, and not that you were ever close to me, you seem so far away again. I just don't know what to expect from you. I wish I could have said I had a grand first love experience, I'll only remember you in pain.