when your intuition leads to careful watch over details, and providing you the hardest proofs of betrayal, and you can only become crippled of taking the next right step, it's a shame. I feel like I am the one that's betraying me the most.

I am just not so sure. But it's eerily creepy how everything ties right back to you.

so damn aggravated! Ben bu adami anliyamiyorum.
Kendi bile ne istedigini bilmiyorki. Bir dedigi bir dedigini tutmuyor. Bir yaptigini digerini tutmuyor. Kafa yormayi birakiyorum artik. Umursuyorsam, namertim.

and maybe the spring is finally here, the break I have been looking for. Maybe this time around, things will go smoothly (not saying trouble free) and finally we can connect. I am foolish I know, because I have similar thought patterns and hope, eventually end up disarrayed and distraught.

ayaklarim cok agriyor...

am I recovering? Am I catching up?